February 4, 2008

Little Did He Know...

Note: I'm finishing this post in October 2011. A tad late, but better to have it recorded than to completely forget, right?

While I was sick, I did a lot of sleeping, drinking warm drinks with ~4,000% of my daily need of Vitamin C, and watching movies. I had the opportunity to watch the movie "Stranger than Fiction" and was reminded how much I had liked it the first time I saw it. IRS accountant Harold Crick lives a mundane existence until he starts hearing a voice, which isn't a big issue until it mentions that he is soon going to die.
The voice surprises him with this news, saying, "Little did he know that this simple seemingly innocuous act would result in his imminent death." Harold is fortunate in that he can hear this voice and now is aware of what the imminent future holds. By the time his death actually comes, he has come to grips with it and is prepared, or at least as prepared as one can be for such an event.

On Sunday, I had a surprise that life would change dramatically from that point. Kaitlyn and I were having a normal, happy conversation and then suddenly she hit me with this: "I can't do this anymore." I was stunned. My throat wouldn't make any sounds because too many thoughts were bouncing around in my brain.

When I was finally able to get my wits about me somewhat, I broke the deafening silence by softly asking what "I can't do this anymore" meant. She replied that she wasn't ready to leave Huntington Beach, and furthermore that she couldn't do a long-distance relationship anymore.

I don't remember much else from the conversation. Maybe my memory banks shut down as a defense mechanism. Maybe it's a little shell-shock. But that's it. That's that.

I'll respect her decision and allow her to move on, and I'm going to do the same.

Good night...and good luck.

Update: As of October 2011, Kaitlyn has married a great guy and they have a super-cute baby. I'm very happy for her and continue to wish her the best.

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